My mind is in overdrive right now, I can’t even. I wanna stop thinking too much right now but I can’t and I won’t because I want to think about you. I hate this. I’m too buzzed and I think about you too much, I find it unhealthy already. This is bad, distracting even. But I like it because I’m thinking about you and I don’t like it because it’s beyond my control. I like being in control and I’m losing it right now. I wish I can stop my brain from thinking for a second, like think about something rational but I can’t. This is fun. No, this is not. This is me just wanting to type regardless of the thought of this post. F that, man. I’m tired. But my head isn’t. I wish it is. It’s driving me crazy thinking about how I’m losing control. Really.