Welcoming 2012 where everything seems beyond normal.
It’s only been a couple of days since the year started but it hasn’t been the way it used to be. I don’t really believe in those New Year’s resolution crap but it’s silly how things have changed that abruptly, and how I was caught unguarded.
I don’t really intend to change something just because the year is young, but with all the phenomena that’s directly affecting me and with all the things that were taken away from me, it’s like the universe is forcing me to step up to action. But here I am, still indifferent like it’s all no big of a deal than it actually is.
It’s also weird how one day, it’s like all my feelings were left in the past year. It’s kind of a good thing when you think about the negative emotions I’ve left, but I left everything in the past and this is where I should panic.
For my first personal post of the year, I’m starting with a realization that I should have been more thankful for the previous year despite the bad things outweighing the impact of the many blessings I’ve received. I had always been ungrateful for the things that were provided for me like having a convenient life. Now that it’s slowly fading away with our helper not coming back and our drivers being AWOL, I feel like I should’ve complained less about my life.
I never realized how great my life was and now things are not how they used to be. Now, I have to arrange my clothes, make my own bed, cook my meals, commute from time to time and more things I’m not used to be doing.
I should have cherished things more instead of running away a lot of times because now I feel like I’ve distanced myself too much from things.
As early as now, this year has brought me bigger responsibilities that I know I was ready for but I just didn’t see coming. Despite all that, it’s hard to believe that I haven’t been as whiny as I was compared to back when I have things go the way it’s intended to be, and that’s what I’m thankful for right now.
Maybe I’ve grown past that phase and I can now handle more things in a less violent and unpleasant manner. I think this is a sign that I should start to be more grateful not only for the worldly material things provided for me, but also for giving me strength and making me a fighter.
Fact: My family calls me by my name and Dude.
(Source: fyeahstrangefinds)
